Very scary meditation! help!
Hi everyone! I have been a reader of this forum for a little while, but this is my first post! And most likely won't be my last!
....but I need a little help. I have been practicing deep relaxation techniques for a few months with much success. At this point, I can close my eyes and immediately become deeply relaxed when I want. My brain is clear and every time I do this I receive intuitions about things going on in my everyday life...such as where lost items are, what other people are thinking/feeling, what I can do to solve some problems, ect.
For the past week or so, something scary has been happening. I don't know if I should be worried or accepting of it. Usually when I am meditating/relaxing, my forearms twitch. I just took it as something my body does when meditating. But sometimes, I'll be with my friends, and I'll feel the twitch coming on. Then I'll lose complete feeling of my body and the ability to move or speak and will have to close my eyes. I have to leave the room and regain my composure so that I don't freak anyone out. A few times I would just go home. Last night, the same thing was happening, and I just sat where I was at my friend's place and closed my eyes. Then I started having trouble breathing. I don't know if I wasn't breathing, or if my breathing slowed down to an alarming rate, but it freaks me out. I try to come back into my body when this happens, and it feels like I am slipping away, and I am afraid of passing out. I told one friend what was going on, and he told me to just relax and don't fight it, but it is very scary when I feel like I can't control my breathing/feel my body and can't snap out of it when I need to. It has even happened while I've been driving!
Can anyone tell me whats going on? Is this an intuition or something like that, or am I entering into something that is above my knowledge of meditation? Please let me know what you think, it's very scary!
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