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I generally go for a walk and do my best to just watch the process. The walk is both good for processing and getting away from people for a little while so I don't offend them as I work through things.
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For me I could not even relate to or with people, nothing anyone said could comfort me, my footing was shaky to say the least, nothing solid to grab ahold of .......... I never felt more alone , I kept thinking about Jesus in the wilderness.... or in the garden alone... crying out to God... in that time, I questioned myself, my exsistance, my faith and God was he real? However it also must be noted that it was the worst experience I have ever had with a crashing depression......so couple that with a spiritual crisis it may have made it worse.....
The good thing is ..... my faith is more solid now than it ever was!... my view* is clearer... and I have much more respect and appreciation and gratitude than I ever have experienced ....
There is a song I heard a while ago , if I can find it I'll post it , it is called "In The Garden Again" by Roy Joseph.... it kind of reminds me of what I felt like