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Originally Posted by The David  I will elaborate more later when I have more time, but for now I'll say this much: Unhooking my computer was the best thing I've ever done for myself. Not avoiding it, not turning it off, but unhooking it.
(I'm at the library computer lab, btw). |
Alright...basically, I have this completely latent computer addiction. I have always known how insidious the internet is, especially forums like this one (i.e, I can procrastinate in the name of Personal Development), but because I moderated the amount of time I spent online, I didn't realize it was a problem. I could resist the computer when I felt it was necessary.
That wasn't enough. Turning it off wasn't even enough. For whatever reason, knowing it was available made it hard to stop thinking about it. My little OCD brain is wired not to let go of thoughts like that, and I felt I needed to use the computer even when I didn't want to. I needed some way of getting the damned machine out of my life. So I unhooked it and vowed never to let it take over my life again.
Magic. Suddenly, there was this incredible peace in the room. It was more than just the absence of that dreadful humming, it was the knowledge that I had made an enormous leap in achieving my goals. It was freedom from a prison I did not even realize I was in mere hours ago. My concentration skyrocketed.
I actually picked up a book randomly and decided to flip through it. Suddenly I was engrossed in it. Not because it was especially interesting (that usually isn't enough, anyway), but because there was nothing else to distract me. Ironically, it was a book about curing ADD.
So yeah, there's a positive note. It's my thread this time so I feel somewhat obligated to be a leader in the project.