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Hi rob312!

First things first: I believe/think/know (pick up you favourite word to describe a conviction based on research and personal experience) that pornography is fundamentally wrong in every way. There are a lot of signs and backups from therapists and doctors who strongly suggests it's as addictive as hard drug. In a physical way. I also strongly believe it's socially wrong. People in the porn industry (actors and actresses) are victims as much as prostitutes are victims. But it's not this post's purpose.

Unfortunately porn addiction is something you are never going to totally get rid of. Sorry but it's the way it is. It'll always come and tempt you in a way or another. Now there are steps you can take to become a better/more free person and not suffer from pornography.

First: get rid of every porn material you own. Every picture, every phantasms, every model portrait, or just cute girl not even showing a piece of skin. Every movies downloaded from the internet, every books or magazines you own or dvd vhs or whatever. Everything.
Two: Start to give yourself 10ç or 1$ or even 1ç for every day you don't look at porn material (unintentional ads don't count of course). Do this until you fail. You will fail. But don't worry about that. When you fail, give the money you collected to a charity of your choice. If you can do this for a month, reward yourself with the money and buy something you wouldn't normally have. See this as a bonus, a reward gift.
Three: Start again with a longer period if you feel like it (maybe a week, a month, two months). Give to charity when you fail, reward yourself when you succeed.
Four: don't blame yourself if you fail, you are a patient, you are a victim. Pornographers are drugs dealers. See it that way.

Other steps: counselling? sports? meditation? group? antiporn software? friend confidence? everything that can help you. But don't see pornography addiction as a symptom of a deeper problem that once solved will magically get rid of your addiction. This war has many front lines. Pornography addiction might be a side effect at first but it's a problem of its entire own.

Right now you are walking down a street, and every time you watch pornography you fall into a hole in the ground and can never climb up. With time you'll be able to climb out, then climb out faster, then sometimes you will even notice the hole before you but will still fall, then maybe once in a while you'll see the hole and be able to jump over. To better fall in the next one. But you'll learn to avoid holes much better with times. You might even think at one point you can stop looking for holes in the ground but then it's only a matter of time before you fall again. Everyone walks different street. Yours has pornography hole in it and you have to watch after them. Not fair, but you can make it. Some people can deal fine with pornography and never get addicted. You are not one of them and will never be, but you can fight it and find peace. But you'll always have to fight more than some.

What I wrote is a short version of a longer text I found a long time ago. I am currently digging my favourites and the net to find the original text, as soon as I got it I'll post the link. It did help me.

I hope you are going to find resources and strength to fight it!