[suicidaldude]

Many people that have had near-death experiences find themselves, at some point, through a complete void, pitch-black nothingness were they report feeling infinitely peaceful.

In many cases, shortly after (please take any notion of space and time with a grain of salt when talking about spirituality), NDErs see a very powerful “light”, at the end of what they call a “tunnel”. They usually describe this light as “pure love”. And they desire to get to this light. We’ll get back to these two important notions later: desire, and love.

At that point, they go through what they describe as a “tunnel” and “travel” to reach that lighted spot. Some of them go back to their bodies after that, others then go on to describe the “spirit world(s)” and were many entities exist, grow and experience (another three important notions).

Of course, the light is frequently associated in predominantly monotheistic cultures with “God” (an aging Caucasian man with a white beard an a kind look, suspected of having jump-started reality out of boredom), and the “world” where the other “entities” reside is equally associated with “heaven” or “paradise”.

Now, let’s get back to this one moment prior to seeing any light in the middle of the void. NDErs have described their feelings while in it, and these are incredibly good feelings. There is just perfection, nothingness, peace, wisdom and pure knowledge. At this point, there is no need for any other feeling. What could be better than peace, than perfection, than void? Void, quantum void, zero-point, nirvana, whatever you want to call it, is not something that can be topped or even matched.

But, suddenly, there is something that is not void, that is not dark and that is not symmetrical: there is a light, there is a spot. And, immediately, there is a desire: the desire to go to this light, which immediately materializes under the form of this tunnel-traveling. And there is love, the love radiated by this light, which in turns increases the desire to be there.

But, one might ask, if the void was perfect and could not be topped, then surely, the light, the love, and the desire must be imperfect? We said earlier that the perfection of the void could not be matched.

So this love is imperfect. It is less than what the NDErs were at before. And yet, they desire to get there. And once there, they associate the place they see with heaven. Isn’t that strange?

I know if I were coming from a place of pure perfection and wisdom, any place, even a place filled with beautiful beings of light (so now there is a need for the concept of “beauty”?) would be considered hell, not heaven.

And what else had the NDErs experienced in this “heaven”? Well, for one thing, they quickly learn, when they arrive there, that beings tend to reincarnate, that they will have to suffer again through physical life, for most of them, at one point or another. They learn about this strange “karma” law that states that they have to pay the price of balancing deeds that, if they hadn’t had to exist, they wouldn’t have done.

They also learn that they have to “grow and learn” in order to become perfect, when only a moment ago they were in a state of perfection.

And the strangest thing is, these NDErs do not seem to be the least bit disappointed.

So on one hand, you have perfection, void, blackness and peace, and it all comes at absolutely no price…

And on the other hand, you have love (a feeling born from imperfection), which, if you desire to experience it, will cost you reincarnation, suffering, constant struggle for growth and learning.

And how did it come to be, this strange feeling of “love”? Well, it started with desire. Your desire to reach this distant light, that you didn’t need in the first place.

So here is my advice. I do not remember being dead before and I am really not sure how it works, but I’ll try anyway: next time you die, if you find yourself in this dark void of perfection, please, PLEASE (for the "love" of … nevermind !) do not desire anything. Melt into the void if you can. And if at one point, you have the misfortune of seeing a loving, beautiful "light" at the end of a tunnel, refrain from going there. Forget desire, forget love. The best thing is to not express anything, but if there indeed is a light, let it understand your refusal of love.

Something along the line of “You are not required. Your existence is not required. Your light and your love can only lead to more suffering and more trauma. You shall disappear”. Don't express any feeling, good or bad, for or toward the light. The more neutral the better.

Who knows, maybe I’ll work and the deceptive light will go away. And then you are inexistent. Enjoy!

Just my 2 cents here.