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Originally Posted by Boreas  What really scares me about wealth is the feeling that since I have done so well, a fall must be inevitable. I almost feel like I have to give something back, or something "bad" will happen. This is completely an illusion, but it is difficult to defeat this illusion. |
This is exactly what I recently discovered about myself. Lately work has become tedious and hard for me. I threw up resistance to anything that could lead to more success. I use to think it's just because I no longer enjoyed the work, but when I was putting together my business I would pull 14 hour days doing essentially the same thing. It's because I worry if I get more successful, I'll stand out more and I'm afraid to be perceived as "more important" than other people.
I realized I'm
actively fighting success. Isn't that a strange thought? Once I wrote that down and realized it was absolutely true I thought for a minute I was insane, and the next minute I was slightly scared at just how much I could achieve if those fears were gone.
Awareness is everything though, making this realization is where things start getting better in my experience.