I have walked in your shoes before. You need a mentor that can pull you out of this mental state. Attend a personal development seminar if that is available in your area, or watch a video of success gurus like Tony Robbins, T Harv Eker, Jack Canfield, etc. You can even find them on YouTube for a start. Understand the law of delayed gratification and do some new things that you are good at or passionate about. You will notice that your life will start to change, gradually. Hey, I once read about a blind guy who climbed Mt Everest and reached the top. If you set your mind to it, you can accomplish the most amazing things.
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