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Originally Posted by impaul99  You are absolutely right. You're describing the process of self-sabatage. It is your fear of being successful, being rich, being important, being BRILLIANT that's stopping you.
If you became ultra successful at your day-trading, and earned 50 Million Dollars in the next 12 months, bought a 12,000 square foot home with a swimming pool and drove a $150,000 car, and wore a $30,000 Rolex, what would people think!
I'm not saying those are "worthy" things to do with money, and I'm not saying they are not. I'm saying that there is a lot of "fear" based thinking associated with wealth. What will people think? How will they judge you? What will your friends say? How will your parents feel? All these mixed emotions come up. It takes courage to dive into this line of thinking and transcend all that, and it takes courage to be TRULY COMFORTABLE with being wealthy. |
I think it takes perspective not to care what people think of you, and that requires not letting what other people think of you affect your self worth. Courage doesn't help me do this as much as mediation and feeding myself confidence. (Confidence and courage being different in subtle ways)
What really scares me about wealth is the feeling that since I have done so well, a fall must be inevitable. I almost feel like I have to give something back, or something "bad" will happen. This is completely an illusion, but it is difficult to defeat this illusion. I could face it with courage, but that would leave me with perpetual conflict, since courage only lets you act in the presence of fear, but doesn't actually dissolve fear. To dissolve the fear of "not being worth it" requires that I derive my worth from some other source that remains constant, and not from my wealth or anything else which is subject to risk and change by my very goals and actions.
Steve's blog post on
self acceptance vs. personal development helped me to form this thought in my mind.