The letter was a bit toxic. And the words and underlines made that sertain that it was not just a letter to let me know of the situation.
No I don't have any siblings and I know that my parents garden needs to be tended. I am also aware of the very preassure from familymembers from far away in my big extended family that is also very small and also friends (that are connected to my parents) that constantly tells me whenever I go to my former hometown that I need to help my parents.
I am not that strong to help them (parents) out on my own and whenever I try, I get in the middle of them and have to choose side many times. So I try to stay out of it as much as I can because of my personal boundaries, I get so exhausted otherwise and fail on my personal growth programme to get better self-discipline, like today I got nothing really important done just because out of anger of this letter...
Love Leelene
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