| | I wrote a letter now I feel bad and vital inside...
...but the best part of it, is that both my mother and my boyfriend thinks it was a good idea. I hope that my father also thinks it was a good idea.
The letter came from a "friend" of my father who told me openly that my parents were old and litterly had unuseful bodies and that the garden was falling appart and becoming like a garden were no one have lived like in 10 years or so. My mother is long term depressed probobly as long as most of her life and finally she takes care of her inner life, I know it is hard. My dad is light multidisabled and have bad sight, is deaf with hearing implant and really bad legs. They have no energy. The friend told me who have my own problems and lives 10 to 12 hours away by car that I needed to get back home more and take care of the garden. I don't have any idea of how to care for a garden and I must say that I like to live here and take care of my self and get myself a good life. And that lead me to write a letter to say to this "friend" of my fathers that he who has got a fine garden and loads of experience and that are unemployed should think about the fact that a "good" friend who has got a car, under 1 hour to drive, time on his side and loads of knowlegde in gardens should take care of the garden instead of saying bad words about my parents and myself.
I feel so strange, but this feeling is having tow sides. First I feel so bad, it was my first real "NO" letter in my entrie life. And I feel somehow proud and somehow even sad. I am an internal mess, but I guess I will feel so much more happy now afterwards and the more days that comes.
No one calls my parents rotten even if their bodies are a bit broken. And no one calls me indirectly a bad daughter either, because they don't know what I've done for my parents health and happiness...So if this "friend" wants to be friend with my parents they have to accept my letter and think about it and act accordingly to it. If not, they are not allowed to send me more letters and expect answers from me!
Tell me this was a good thing to do...tell me it was a good way of saying No for the first time for real...