[Vanessa]

It sounds like you are having one hell of a conflict with the idea of completely pursuing your passion and other people judging you for how much money you'll make.

You mentioned the idea of making money and everything over enough money is excessive and you would have to give it away. It seems giving money away is not something you would enjoy doing when you have your million dollars.That's not a bad thing it just does not motivate you or make you feel good about having that amount of money. If you don't want to give the extra money away, you could find a purpose for using that money to do something that is in harmony with your passion and your wants -- you mentioned that making a good living to support yourself and your eventual family.

Pursuing your passion to the point of making more than you need to have a suffecient living could be used towards building a secure future for yourself and your loved ones. Like a nest egg where you can be sure to live off the interest of your money and take care of the financial needs of your future. That's only possible when you are making more than what you need to survive on. But you have to want that deep down, that's really all you'll put your money to use for otherwise you'll just get rid of it accidentally or not. And that's not any better place to be than not having money in the first place.

Another concept you mentioned that you weren't too happy with is the idea of being sucessful and having money and materialism distract you from your passion and goals. I have no problem having nicer things when I've earned the right to buy them by doing things that are in line with my passions.

I do have a goal to make over a million dollars but its not just a number figure or a means to an easy life. It's my journey to pursuing my passion, discovering what my limits are and pushing them to being a better person, growing beyond what I am comforatable with right now. Inertia is the surest roadblock to reaching my goals. That million dollars isn't just money its a representation of the value I bring to others and relfection of value I hold inside of myself with my character, my heart, my love and my actions. I would say that if I had to put a number on what good I have inside myself a million dollars is not nearly high enough. But it's a start because the money I am making now is not reflecting that inner value I place on myself.

I also believe that money is a by product of value I create by living on purpose, I intend to create more and have seen the amount of money I make increase too.

I strongly believe that other people's beliefs about me and money are none of my business. It's theirs. My only concern is am I being true to myself, my passions and my goals. That's my measure of success and no one else's take on what is success distracts me. Other people will always have good, bad and indifferent things to judge you by. It's just noise to what really matters.

Pursue your passion whole heartedly and success as you determine it will follow.