I trying to forget my past. But sometimes it seems the things I need to do to put my life on track seems so overwhelming and nearly impossible. Thats its too late now to do anything anymore. I can barely get out of bed. I'm starting to chain smoke. I have social anxiety so going to class is almost a nightmare to me. I don't have any ambition. I'd rather just stay in my room and watch TV. My morale is gone.
I tried doing some spiritual things like reading the bible and going to church. But I dont feel anything. I feel I'm already dead in spirit that I might as well be dead physically.
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