You say you want to die? Perhaps that is what gives you the true freedom to live. There is nothing that you can do to reduce a situation beyond death, and the way you talk that is what the situation you are in is going to result in. You can do anything, anything you want, and no matter what it will be better. You have hit the proverbial bottom, and owe nobody anything more than you owe yourself your own life. So what if your aunt gave you money for community college? I'm sure that she would rather see you do whatever it is you want to do rather than just rot in a stagnant college while being supported by her. You have no life, it is time for you to rise up and become whatever it is you want to become. Rise from the ashes and be reborn. Or sit in the swamp and choke on your own rotting life. Either way, it's what you wanted.
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We must conquer ourselves, and allow our selves to conquer the world.
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