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Originally Posted by LuckyBuffie  Try to focus on the present and the future. Things you can change and make better. Set up a plan and make goals to reach it. If you must think of the past try to make a list of the things you have done well or acomplishments you are proud of as well as things you are grateful for. |
I tried to do that many times but the thoughts about the past and how I could have done so much better. Because right now I feel so behind everyone in terms of social life, academic, physically. I just want to go back and just experience the things I missed out as a kid, I just feel so weak and pathetic. Regularly I would get episodes of depression and sometimes just rage building inside me. RAge at how my life has turned out, why this had to happen to me. Both times I just want to kill myself, but when I feel rage my impulse to carry it out is far more stronger.
Right now I'm just feeling so angry I just want to end it all. Get a brand new start, I am just so sick of this reality I'm living in.
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Originally Posted by Phil Parkinson Have you considered talking to someone about your problems? I think the first step would be to go and see your doctor and tell him about your situation as honestly as you have told us.
I think face to face support is going to be much more valuable to you than people who know very little about you or your background.
Phil x |
Yeah, I'm thinking of seeing my college counsellor.