| | Negativity
I have lead a very interesting, though unfocused life. I finally decided on a career path and moved to a bigger city to strike it rich! It took me a long time to get a job, then I lost the one that I did get a few months ago. When I had the job I felt pretty good. Now my mind is flooded with negativity. Whenever I look at a job posting, my mind keeps telling me reasons why I won't get it. The self-hating voice is a real drag. I am a competent, and bright person, but for some reason I can't get a career going. I hammer away at myself for not "being" someone more successful, and constantly compare myself to anyone around me who is doing better.
I have been to plenty of therapists and I guess the only answer is self-acceptance and working harder to get what I want. The conditioning of my mind seems to be in there for good.
Any suggestions on how to deal with this?