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RobK · 09-26-2007, 10:56 PM

I've been trying. I've applied to quite a few jobs. I haven't heard back from anywhere. Well, I haven't heard yes from anywhere.

I am trying to be a good worker at my current job. I guess it makes the time go faster.

I wrote an introduction to an X-prize like project I want to submit to a foundation, ran it by someone, and he liked it. That improved my mood.
I took a practice LSAT and got an average score, so maybe if I studied hard I could get into law school.

It seems that one of my character flaws, procrastination, is kicking me around again. I know why I do it. I'm "know" I'm going to fail, so I put something off as long as possible. Then I get desperate because of some event, and try to frantically push through. It's like I won't work without a severe deadline. Maybe I want to feel bad about myself?

I'm still praying, but I feel really desperate. I would like to get into grad school, or get a job that interests and challenges me, but without being overwhelming. I guess I should pray for that.

I've been tempted to start playing the lottery. I know it is a bad idea, and for me will only lead to an addiction. I talked to my ex about it, and she brought up the addiction angle, which I hadn't thought off.

Things to work on:
Procrastination
Prioritizing: Commit to doing something for certain length of time. Whether it is patent searching, proposal writing, or job applications, work at something steadily without interrupitng it with feelings that I'm doing the wrong thing, which leads to paralysis.

Please, someone give me advice or encouragement. I have to go to the gym and get some exercise.

09-26-2007, 10:56 PM	#20 (permalink)
RobK Junior Member Join Date: Sep 2007 Posts: 15	Mood: Low I've been trying. I've applied to quite a few jobs. I haven't heard back from anywhere. Well, I haven't heard yes from anywhere. I am trying to be a good worker at my current job. I guess it makes the time go faster. I wrote an introduction to an X-prize like project I want to submit to a foundation, ran it by someone, and he liked it. That improved my mood. I took a practice LSAT and got an average score, so maybe if I studied hard I could get into law school. It seems that one of my character flaws, procrastination, is kicking me around again. I know why I do it. I'm "know" I'm going to fail, so I put something off as long as possible. Then I get desperate because of some event, and try to frantically push through. It's like I won't work without a severe deadline. Maybe I want to feel bad about myself? I'm still praying, but I feel really desperate. I would like to get into grad school, or get a job that interests and challenges me, but without being overwhelming. I guess I should pray for that. I've been tempted to start playing the lottery. I know it is a bad idea, and for me will only lead to an addiction. I talked to my ex about it, and she brought up the addiction angle, which I hadn't thought off. Things to work on: Procrastination Prioritizing: Commit to doing something for certain length of time. Whether it is patent searching, proposal writing, or job applications, work at something steadily without interrupitng it with feelings that I'm doing the wrong thing, which leads to paralysis. Please, someone give me advice or encouragement. I have to go to the gym and get some exercise.