Steve,
That's how I'm trying to look at it. I know I can't control outcomes, only what I do. so I'm trying to focus on controlling the things I can. My prayer last night was along the lines of "God, let things turn out well, and I asked to let me be motivated by hope, not fear." I don't that wasn't too demanding. I also asked for a removal of my anger and resentment. So maybe that'll come too.
I actually wrote in my notebook that trying to improve is enough reason to have some self-esteem.
Today I'm hiking with Lauren. I'm really trying to go into it with no expectations. I'll work on applications later on today. And I will improve my attitude at work. It is something I can control, and it is good practice. But maybe Because good things tend to happen to positive people, right? And maybe I just needed a kick to get out of Barnes & Noble, I'm kinda smart, I stayed there way to long. I hope it doesn't hurt my odds of getting a better job. I think working there was one of the factors that kept me out of medical school. But given my past and predilections, not getting in might have been a good thing.
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