Quick update for those who might be interested:
There's an old Star Trek episode (the original one with Shatner, Nimoy and all the rest) in which the character of Spock finds himself irresistibly urged to return to his home planet to mate. After a series of gladiatorial-type battles, he's put in the position of having to battle his captain to the death.
This inner confict breaks the biological/spiritual urge of his, and the female in question ends up mating with another man/Vulcan/whatever the writers called it.
One of the lines that the Spock character says near the end of the show is, "Sometimes wanting is better than having."
Without going into too much detail, I've determined that this line pretty much said it all in relation to this neighbour of mine. I've seen flashes of her personality that have shown me, in words and deeds, that maybe she and I really wouldn't be suited to each other. My desire, my feelings, basically were lying to me, they were masking what I should have been able to see if I weren't so focused on wanting.
I'll still be around to help out on occasion, especially with the kids (they're a riot!) but the whole desire for her has diminished dramatically over the past couple of days.
As far as the occasional late-night visit - which is pretty rare anyway - I think next time I'll just tell her to manage by herself.
Thanks, everyone, for your input and support.
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