That's the challenge of polarization in a nutshell.
If each polarity seems to be leading you in different directions, I'd spend time exploring that, such as by journaling about it. What do you think each path will be like? Where will it take you? Where will you end up? What kind of experiences will you have?
The polarization question is helping you recognize that your energy is currently divided against itself. Just reaching that point is significant. Fo now it's perfectly fine to explore both paths a little, especially if you can get a conscious sense of which polarity you're using at any given time. Are you allowing energy to flow through you, or are you trying to pull it into you? You may need to do a lot of back and forth before figuring out which polarity resonates most with you. I had to do this for years before I could figure it out.
This is a situation where a temporary trial of each polarity can prove very enlightening. Consider doing just one week on each side to the best of your ability, and see how it feels to you. Does a clear preference emerge?