Hey there, my little honeybee. It sounded like you were singing a country-western song:
He loves me, I am sure of that!
He's out drinkin' and screwin', the dirty rat
He won't give me what I need, but I can't kick him out
'Cuz I've got what I deserve, of that I have no doubt!
The relationship that needs looking at is the one you're having with yourself, beegirl. You keep on attracting the same daddy-guy over and over again because you decided early on that that's what love looks like.
Take a look at the landmark forum and see if it looks attractive to you. If it doesn't, please consider going to see a therapist ON YOUR OWN. You are trapped by an old painful decision made by a tiny little girl. It sounds something like "I am worthless" and you would benefit from some help dismantling the power that has over you, because left to your own devices, "I am worthless" will keep trying to strangle the vitality out of you.
You are loveable and valuable and you are a sparklingly delightful gift from the universe to the rest of us lucky souls. I hope you will reach out for assistance in unwrapping the veil that blinds you to your own fabulous self.
p.s. I found myself writing this whole durned thang with a country-western aya-ccent.
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