Boreas, I've found that the pursuit of a "dream" is often more exciting than the actual dream itself, once achieved. We had a goal of moving into an exclusive gated community with several golf courses, with tennis courts, with our own swimming pool, etcetera. We gave away all our old furniture and had the new house decorated professionally. About six months after moving in, I occasionally found myself looking around, thinking, "Is this it?"
Maybe you just need a new dream, something else to work towards and to strive for. If you are unencumbered by children and ties to family or work, you have plenty of options. I would say try out some different situations until you find one that fits you just right. Good luck
