I understand you feel a lot of guilt and shame, I've been there. However, you should know that if you don't really love her, you're definitely better off apart. You can only force yourself to love her for so long, and even then, she'll feel robbed of an authentic, loving relationship.
The fact that you don't have feelings for her is no fault of your own. You can't force these things. It happens all the time. You're not to blame.
I agree with everyone who says it's time to take responsibility, but don't confuse this with beating yourself up more. Taking responsibility means you pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and become a better person because of it.
Best of luck.
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