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Tigerlilly · 09-17-2007, 12:04 PM

Oh, this is difficult.

I've always been interested to find out how the world works, studied books about chaos theory and Einstein's universe, learned about different religions and philosophies, so I've come a long way in trying to puzzle reality out.

At the time being I basically believe in the All is One theory, that God is all there is, and we and everything else there is, are God incarnated. So in theory I find it easy to believe to be telepathically linked to all others. Still I'm flabbergasted to sometimes find what goes through me in thinking and feeling about others reflected in the lives of others for real at a later point.

And I do believe in manifestation of sorts, though I haven't really figured out how it works for good only, still I'm knocked out of my shoes if what I wish for is brought to me in ways I never expected.

I believe in synchronicity but not always trust where it seems to lead me. Last year synchronicity hitting me like a wave led me to believe my soul was somehow bonded to a total stranger's and though in the end I managed to keep my head above water, the experience left me feeling battered and wary.

So my greatest problem with all sorts of psychic awareness I guess is fear of not staying on the side of truth. I want truth above all, I don't want to swap one illusion for another. And I think that calls for knowing and resting in myself, not being too emotionally attached, a challenge most of the times feel hardly up to, so to be responsible for my life in such ways I can hardly fathom has me frightened terribly a lot of times.

At the moment I take it one day at a time, trying to be as true to myself and my own experience as can be, not being hard on myself, but to find some balance and rest in myself, cause if anything I believe it's essential to have that before sailing off into the great unknown and facing a reality that might shake you. You need to know yourself and have found that place that feels safe in yourself.

So yes, in a way I do believe that the world is more than meets the eye, but at the same time I often try not to be confused and frightened and shying back into being blindsided.

09-17-2007, 12:04 PM	#28 (permalink)
Tigerlilly Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2007 Posts: 257	Oh, this is difficult. I've always been interested to find out how the world works, studied books about chaos theory and Einstein's universe, learned about different religions and philosophies, so I've come a long way in trying to puzzle reality out. At the time being I basically believe in the All is One theory, that God is all there is, and we and everything else there is, are God incarnated. So in theory I find it easy to believe to be telepathically linked to all others. Still I'm flabbergasted to sometimes find what goes through me in thinking and feeling about others reflected in the lives of others for real at a later point. And I do believe in manifestation of sorts, though I haven't really figured out how it works for good only, still I'm knocked out of my shoes if what I wish for is brought to me in ways I never expected. I believe in synchronicity but not always trust where it seems to lead me. Last year synchronicity hitting me like a wave led me to believe my soul was somehow bonded to a total stranger's and though in the end I managed to keep my head above water, the experience left me feeling battered and wary. So my greatest problem with all sorts of psychic awareness I guess is fear of not staying on the side of truth. I want truth above all, I don't want to swap one illusion for another. And I think that calls for knowing and resting in myself, not being too emotionally attached, a challenge most of the times feel hardly up to, so to be responsible for my life in such ways I can hardly fathom has me frightened terribly a lot of times. At the moment I take it one day at a time, trying to be as true to myself and my own experience as can be, not being hard on myself, but to find some balance and rest in myself, cause if anything I believe it's essential to have that before sailing off into the great unknown and facing a reality that might shake you. You need to know yourself and have found that place that feels safe in yourself. So yes, in a way I do believe that the world is more than meets the eye, but at the same time I often try not to be confused and frightened and shying back into being blindsided.