Paul I predict all the answers to the universe will be conveyed to you in a direct, easy to digest manner in the next post or two. Just not this one.
One thing I'm discovering: the more I try to understand why, the further I get away from the what. Something's happening, you're experiencing it, it can be real to you without having the entire thing spelled out for you.
But then again, that's the mystery, and why this is so fun. Trying to understand. I need to learn to be satisfied with the few puzzle pieces I've managed to lock in thus far, knowing that the next puzzle piece is scattered on the table somewhere, and that it's inevitable I'll find it, because it matches the previous puzzle piece.
It's like a thousand piece puzzle, that's more fun and challenging to put together than a child's one that just has a dozen or so oversized pieces.