thank you to all of you for your responses... I kind of agree with the statement that you have to kind of go through that initial phase of pain before it gets better.. i'm such an emotional person though that the feelings of loneliness seem so overwhelming at times and i just cry... sometimes i wish i could just be more independent and happy with myself.. i know it sounds trite...
when i'm back at home and i have alone time away from my husband i'm okay with it.. because i can find things to do, or even NOTHING to do sometimes is nice when i'm in my own home/environment... but something about being in a hotel room alone in a city where i know NO ONE is just so different from being alone back home... i enjoy time by myself when i can just read a book or just watch tv or do whatever...but being by myself somewhere foreign seems so much different.. i dont' know why i can't enjoy myself here... |