Well, it isn't Frederick's fault that I'm a **** up. So why should he suffer?
I was in NA for a while. I always had trouble with accepting the things I can't change, changing the things I can, and knowing the difference.
I guess what I can change is what I do. I've been going to the gym for maybe a month every day, last week I added squats and deadlifts(?) and the chronic pain in my hip is almost gone. Physical things I have a fair amount of control over. In light of that, I quit smoking an hour ago. Not long, but it's a start. I know I never have to smoke again. That is one of the things I can control. Whether I get into grad school, I can't control. Whether I apply, I can control.
It rained today, so I couldn't clean out my car, and I stayed up too late last night, so I wasn't very productive on anything today.
Gotta take dog out. Back tommorow
PS this is mostly a day journal for me, but I appreciate feedback.
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