Your past is very much a part of who you are now. You can never forget the past but the negative effects have changed you in some way. Some for the better and probably some for the worse.
Try to see that without the negativity, you would have missed out on invaluable experience. Once the positive arises from the negative, the acknowledgement of your maturity will negate the hurt and resentment. Positive and negative are there for a very good reason. Without one the other cannot exist.
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Originally Posted by hawkal  Hi, my past is a very negative part of my life which has a burden on my present and thus probably affects my future. I find I live in the past a lot and have a lot of hindsight but not much foresight. I used to get bullied, I did terrible during my education. I know for a fact I could of been an A grade student but I was just too lazy and I lived for the day at the time and didn't care much for my future. During one of my final exams I just didn't even try, I just wanted to get home so I could go out with my mates and smoke some weed.
Now thats all gone (including those "mates") I find I still have bottled up rage and grudges against the people that hurt me. I sometimes think about how I could learn a martial art build up some muscle find where they live and smash there faces in just so I can get revenge. I don't consider them as human, they're just scum. If I saw one of them in danger for whatever reason and they needed help I wouldn't even consider it, regardless of whether they had changed.
Now I need to somehow let go of my past and focus on making my future a much more positive one but I don't know how to. People will say "just let it go and move on" but it doesn't work like that, thoughts of my past seem to creep up from my subconscious to my conscious like my mind is being raped by my past and it just makes me feel pretty bad.
How can I let go of my past? |