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I don't know that this will help much, but I had a somewhat similar experience in college. The details are different, but I was left with a feeling much like what you describe.

I sat down in the only open seat on my first day of Health class. Next to me was a guy I thought was cute. Soon, we started a conversation (I think I forgot my pencil or something). It turned out that we liked the same things and were always catching ourselves saying "ME TOO!". We always talked before and after class and he paid attention mostly to me during class. He would ask to meet up to study. He got my phone number. Any time he saw me around campus, he would come over and talk.

I didn't come to find out he already had a girlfriend, but at the end of the semester he asked me to hang out a couple of times. The second time we watched a movie and then he took me home. I never heard from him again. I had never been in a relationship before and I thought, like you, that he was it. I did all the wishful imagination that you did. I was devastated. Now, I don't even remember if I tried to call him or not, but I know that for the longest time I wondered what I had done or why I wasn't good enough for him. I actually felt kind of crushed.

One day, the pain was gone and I realized how great my life was. Believing that everything happens for a reason certainly helped at one point. I later heard some things about him from a friend at the school he transfered to which made me thankful nothing ever happened between us.

I can't give you any magic pill to help you get over this, nor will I pretend it's easy. But, you sound like a very kind, thoughtful guy which is sometimes hard to find in college. I am confident you will find someone who will treat you well and share a truthful, fun, fulfilling relationship with you. Believe me, one day you will wonder what you were ever thinking about this girl.

For now, focus on your schoolwork. Focus on your friends and doing fun stuff with them. Focus on improving any area of your life that you feel might be lacking. Affirm just how awesome you are to yourself...things like this tend to make us question our worth. You are worth more than what this girl has treated you to.

Good luck!