Thanks ZHereford,
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Originally Posted by ZHereford  What is still bothering you most about this situation?
Is it that you expected a totally different outcome - like that she might be with you right now and instead she had a boyfriend all along?
Do you feel cheated? Or are you mad at yourself for falling for her and her antics? |
In the beginning, I was thinking that way, as if there was a mutual attraction (before I knew about her bf). After I found out just what the situation was, I was feeling down (although mostly at myself for liking her and misinterpreting the mixed signals). I did kind of feel cheated, like she was using me for schoolwork or something, then again maybe I was thinking she may have liked me still, hoping that maybe if I told her how I felt, she may have felt the same way.
But I still tried to keep my distance as I respected the fact that she was already in a relationship. Despite all this she never actually spoke the words directly to me that she wasn’t attracted me. Even after I “cleared the air” with her, where I explained everything that went on between us, every little thing that happened, I wanted *her to know* I even asked her a bunch of questions, like what she was thinking about the different situations. She liked my writing, but she didn’t really give me many clear answers, and by this time, we weren’t speaking or communicating to each other any more, basically for good.
I can’t explain why I’m still thinking about because as I’ve said before, I don’t want to.