Really try to use EFT to get rid of those limiting beliefs you have, wich cause those ugly feelings you are trying to get rid of.
Try to use phrases like "even though my mother thought i was anorexic, i deeply and completelly accept myself" while yo do EFT, and the problem will go away, try
Tapping.com - Free EFT Videos - Emotional Freedom Technique for some free videos to get started quick, remember to focus on the feeling, this is the important part, also try the link at my sig. (it looks very ridiculous, but i have been using it and it simply works, the bad feeling will go away, guaranteed).
Good luck!.