wow buddy
, when i read your original post it was as if you were reading my own life story. get out now and get out clean. i've been in your situation twice and the first time, i let it drag on and off for 7 years!! The longer you wait, the harder it gets. Sorry if I sound a little cocky, but I always believe any man can get any woman back if he tries hard enough. If you can't live without her, we'll help you get her back.