Originally Posted by ericwordelman
I think I may just be disappointed because I've been living so far below my potential for so long and am just realizing and acting on my full potential.
This sounds nice, but frankly, I doubt it. Moments of clarity tend to be uppers, not downers. When you discover your potential, your past melts away and you become far more focused on where you are and where you are going. Maybe you smack yourself on the forehead in a "What have I been thinking!" type moment, but it doesn't last, and certainly doesn't generate the type of angst you've spilled here. When you discover your passion, there is a feeling of having so much to do, and wanting to get through as much of it as possible as quickly as possible, that the first thing you let go of is the past... you start complaining that you're overwhelmed and can't possibly get to all the things/people who need your attention, not that your life sucks!
Judging from disconnectedness from your posts--as well as some things I picked up on from your posts about wanting to get into PD--I'd suggest you stretch out the decision making process a bit longer... it's not clear that the conclusion you seem to have come to is the right one for you, or that all the pieces fit yet. Take your time, and revel in the exploratory process! Enjoy the roller coaster ride that is personal growth... or to mix my metaphors, think of yourself as having taken a wipe out while skiing unexplored terrain: you thought you know where you're going, but now you've been thrown for a loop and you've lost your bearings... so check to make sure the body parts are all working, collect yourself, re-equip, and take off again when you're settled. Your destination hasn't moved, you just need to remember where it is.