[Sanity Panda]

There is a good friend of mine who I've known for five years, never in my mind did I entertain the thought that we might drift apart since I promised myself that I would always keep in contact. School has started once again for my friend, and it is really important to her so I would expect the level of contact to drop down close to nothing.

It has sort of been 5 weeks and I haven't heard a single word from her despite sending her e-mails, no threat here, maybe she would rather prefer another form of communication. However I haven't also seen her online during the weekends either.

What makes it worse is the fact that occasionally during the weekends I would see her using things such as facebook but not appearing on messenger. Granted, it could be that they are really busy with school work that they only have enough time to browse these websites but not enough to talk. I want to believe this is the case, but I'm afraid that I might just be deluding myself here.

Today I was tempted to send a short e-mail "Hello, How are you?" to see whether that would get a response from her as opposed to my longer e-mails which talked about whats been going on. Should I send the e-mail though? I mean I'd prefer it if they actually sent me something, cause they wanted to rather than send something cause I basically forced them (such as the e-mail above.)

Where do you think this friendship is heading honestly?

I'm sort of annoyed with myself cause I mean I'm basically doubting the strenght of our friendship but that idea of the other person not wanting to hang out anymore keeps reminding me every couple weeks or so. At the end of the day, I'd like to keep my offer of friendship as unconditional but I realised thats actually rather difficult.