David, I wish I could transfer to you my memories and thoughts through my process of coming out. That you have come to terms with yourself is going to be your rock and the supportive people you've met will help you adjust to who you've known yourself to be but were not. Dealing with your sister reaction doesn't sound like what you need to worry about.
Questioning your family's unconditional love about who you are is worrying about something you have no control over. It took my family years, and years to accept and love me as I am. the big thing I learned from that experience is that I can't control how they love me or what they show me as their love. I can only control my love for them as they work through their issues about how I am. I can only let them cause feelings and reactions to my being gay if I let them.
You too have that power to only feel what you allow yourself to fear about their reaction. You might be surprised at how strong you will be through coming out to your family. They love you. If you think they don't love you as you are, you can still love them and know that you love yourself enough to happy and grateful for being true to yourself and sexuality.
Take all the time you need to work though who you are. Find confidence in those who have been there too. You're not alone, I promise.
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