[The David]

I've been planning this for a while, and knowing that I still have not done it is an enormous burden. I just went back to school and have plummeted into a paralyzing depression, and the funny thing is how I'm blaming everything else, even though I've been thinking about this every day of the semester and can think of nothing else.

Advice would be appreciated. My parents are strict fundamentalists, and although I'm not dependent on them anymore (I'm more dependant on grandparents), it will still get pretty ugly. My sister has mellowed out a little more, even though we've had similar conflicts in the past, but I don't know how she'll deal with it, either. Due to my upbringing I have almost had nervous breakdowns just coming out to myself. So basically, this isn't easy.