I agree with Kaspian. Sonia Choquette's book could be helpful to you.
It sounds like you're becoming increasingly attuned to your gut while at the same time, you're tempted to give into your fears and self-doubt about your intuition and spirit guidance. The more you learn to listen to your feelings, the less you will focus or channel energy into fear. The positive and calm feelings are the ones that will ground you no matter what is unfolding in your life.
