definitely a case of losing attraction. we had a few arguments that seemed to really bother me. i did not discuss it with her for a while & let myself stew over it. i know this was a bad decision too.
when i look at her now, i can see that she is an attractive person phyically and as a human being. but, i cannot find a passionate response to her. we've been together over 10 years. most times for the first 5-8 years were good. she was abusive to me at some points and i also had a hard time getting past that.
i know the thing with the friend seems ridiculous in retrospect. i don't want to be with that person. i'm more commited to being in a long term relationship and it would not work out with the friend.
part of the reason this is so freaking hard is that my partner has been my best friend for years. now i have treated her like ****.
