Originally Posted by st33med
Well hi! I haven't posted here in awhile! So hi
I've been exploring BDSM possibilities by going online and talking with others and um... playing with others.
However, I've recently been discovering that I'm being turned on by guys as well or even MTF post or pre. I believe I'm pansexual!
Another thing happening right now is that I'm still depressed of course. Though I'm getting a strong feeling it's caused by lack of social life. I'm really REALLY excited and energized by just talking about sex online. So I'm thinking it's that sex would be a great avenue to feel better and have fun. Though... I feel kinda... dirty for joining a BDSM munch and having sexual fun. Of course I can still socialize, but... it's sex. I'm aiming for sex and socializing and fun. I'm not thinking about using and manipulating people of course.
It's just... it feels strange to want to go into sexual domains when I don't even have any social life.
It's confusing for me! I want to sort it out in my head.
So you're pansexual. That's awesome! You rock!
Why are you still depressed? You need to nip that in the bud, pronto! Life is too short to be depressed.
If you're getting really excited about talking about sex online then keeping doing it!! It will give you a deeper sense of who you are and point you towards your purpose.
Why on earth would you allow yourself to feel dirty for having a BDSM munch? I've been invited to poly munches and it's just chatting and talking about the lifestyle. *Yawn* so what?
You can certainly go into sexual domains without having a social life. You can be an introvert and a slut. Sex connects humans on a more stimulating level than idle chit chat. So hone in on that and celebrate the fact that you're not a sheep!