Thus your mind doesn't feel clear, and you are not completely engaged in perceiving the real world. This would also explain why you feel that life is unreal. Do you think this could be the reason?
Perhaps my inner conflict is my current relationship. I do love my girlfriend but she's really disempowering me as she is a rather weak person with many psychological issues (which she refuses to face). I know that it would be better for my life if I'd drop her but I can't - I have that strong urge to protect her from everything, including herself.
I do love her indeed and I know she loves me very much too, but she's not appreciating me for what I am doing much, she behaves very disrespectfully once she loses her temper (which happens on the daily) and she's generally not very empathic when interacting with other people. Moreover, she needs me to do virtually everything for her - and expects me to do it.
One example would be that when I'm having exams, getting very stressed and anxious from the huge amount of work and could use some support, she's usually not trying to understand why I can't go to cinema with her and gets very upset if I don't go. Then she won't let me study until I go with her or comfort her. If I just lock her out of my study (which I did once when I was really short on time) she kicks against the door until it breaks.
I know that looking at this situation, most sane persons would urge me to leave her. But for me, she's like a daughter and I know that if we break up, I'll probably never see her again (as she'll return to her home town) which would be very hard for me as I've really got a strong protection instinct and want to help her to develop herself - but can't do so if she's thousands of miles away.
This is probably that annoying inner conflict I can't solve and that I'm refusing to face therefore.