I must apologize, as I had a bout of temporary insanity. Regardless of whether or not I had the same feelings as you, they're real to you. With that said, is there anything positive that can come out of all of this?
One thing that comes to mind for me is...
... learning to say, "No thanks, this doesn't work for me". There were a couple of people on the boards who were really good at this. Seth seems to come to mind. If the convo went in a direction that didn't work for him, he'd say it and no longer engage that person.
Setting a boundary is a powerful thing. I highly recommend it!