Originally Posted by sarah786
i read it! i actually love reading your threads. I find you to be very honest and charming with a refreshing innocence. As for your suffering, I do not know if you are open to advice, but EFT and The Work by Byron Katie has helped me so much! I actually learned about both those things on these forums. I wish you the very best
Aww, thanks. I find your reply to be refreshing.
I think most people must think I'm an idiot for posting all this stuff. It's nice to be appreciated in spite of it all, after feeling like I'm ruining my relationships.
I still have a lot of growing up to do, and it drives me crazy. It's overwhelming. I have grown so much, but I have so far to go just to be average, so that I can actually have and maintain an intimate relationship. this whole dating failure has made me feel how much farther I have to go. I can focus on my good sides when I want to connect with others - lord knows no one would want to be my friend otherwise. But something so intimate requires you to reveal yourself more fully, before long. You can't ignore the parts of you that aren't yet up to par.
Anyway, I am going to stop talking about myself now. Time to go on a personal retreat and not talk to ANYONE about my issues. SILENCE!