OMG... why did I post this stupid thread?
I really am crazyyyyyyy.
Now I'm thinking I am not going to suddenly be over her. It's a gradual process as always, and she's one of those cases where I think I love and cherish her enough at the end of the day that I will never be 100% over her.
But I'm over something. I'm over being crazy about this. Not over thinking about it too much, but over all the ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ thoughts. Not 100%. But I know that this time is different. This time I am coming from a place of PURE LOVE. I couldn't get there just from sitting there thinking about it, or spending time with her, though that was important. I had to journal about it - in the form of self-coaching: pure solution-seeking. The thing is that I know what I want, ultimately. I just am not always in control of my thoughts. But writing it down and solely with the purpose of seeking solutions, and knowing now how to ask myself the right questions, I am able to redirect my thoughts. I wrote for several hours until I felt so full of love. Now there's only love. This is where I want to be, always.
And if the terrible, impulsive thoughts come back, I will just journal some more.
Also, why do I post all this ♥♥♥♥ in public anyhow????? No one reads it, most of it doesn't make sense, I write way too much, I always end up figuring things out on my own anyway, and it's just... I just like to ♥♥♥♥ing talk about things going on my life. Cochonette, please learn to keep things to yourself. At least this board will be gone soon, so I'll be forced to keep it to myself from now on.
Last edited by Cochonette; 12-25-2011 at 02:39 AM.