I open the window and the sea is there. But its a different sea. No longer stormy and grey, but bright blue and sunny....Im in another country. In a 5 star hotel, in a nice suite. Buffet breakfasts, even the car I rented was upgraded.... I was invited to stay here for a few weeks.
Im not sure anymore if this is my own manifesting, or my angel's. Ive always felt like I have angels watching over me, wanting the best for me. Im always pleasantly surprised....
Got a nice massage today. Saw the sun set. Spent time with loved ones. Im unwinding. Also letting go. The student was the closest thing to the kind of man I wanna be with. Yes, I love him. But also not feeling so attached to any outcome. If he wants I'm ready to give it a chance, If never contacts me again thats OK too. Maybe Im scared to be with someone so many years younger. All I know is that he has to want it enough too.... He has to be brave enough too.
I wonder what he would think of the luxury Im in now. He doesnt know this side of my life. he knew me living with a roomate in a small flat taking the bus or riding my bike... my double life....Weird.
Im moving on and focused on the final outcome I desire.
I deserve it, I just need some days now to unwind and chill out and not think about or plan anything.
I know I will get there. I know. I know I am already there, long before Im fully healed. I suspect Ill need a few lifetimes to be fully healed. And Ive never met a single soul who was...
Except seahorse? but the rest of the people, yes, even the ones in amazing relationships are still growing changing and learning. Not saying its easy...
I actually suspect that if you are fully healed you dont come down to play with the mortals, you are just guide or something.
Anyway. Im going to sleep now.
Last edited by danas; 12-23-2011 at 07:48 PM.