[danas]

Moved again.
I open the window and the sea is there. But its a different sea. No longer stormy and grey, but bright blue and sunny....Im in another country. In a 5 star hotel, in a nice suite. Buffet breakfasts, even the car I rented was upgraded.... I was invited to stay here for a few weeks.
Im not sure anymore if this is my own manifesting, or my angel's. Ive always felt like I have angels watching over me, wanting the best for me. Im always pleasantly surprised....

Got a nice massage today. Saw the sun set. Spent time with loved ones. Im unwinding. Also letting go. The student was the closest thing to the kind of man I wanna be with. Yes, I love him. But also not feeling so attached to any outcome. If he wants I'm ready to give it a chance, If never contacts me again thats OK too. Maybe Im scared to be with someone so many years younger. All I know is that he has to want it enough too.... He has to be brave enough too.

I wonder what he would think of the luxury Im in now. He doesnt know this side of my life. he knew me living with a roomate in a small flat taking the bus or riding my bike... my double life....Weird.

Im moving on and focused on the final outcome I desire.
I deserve it, I just need some days now to unwind and chill out and not think about or plan anything.
I know I will get there. I know. I know I am already there, long before Im fully healed. I suspect Ill need a few lifetimes to be fully healed. And Ive never met a single soul who was...
Except seahorse? but the rest of the people, yes, even the ones in amazing relationships are still growing changing and learning. Not saying its easy...

I actually suspect that if you are fully healed you dont come down to play with the mortals, you are just guide or something.

Anyway. Im going to sleep now.