I feel somewhat lucky to be born with a natural tendency to see people's true self as well... and I almost never got angry until this year - but now I feel like I'm converting that anxiety into anger, which seems to be more healthy in certain ways. It's establishing boundaries at least - but I'll still be able to see right through people, so some in some sense it's just silly....
Damnit Ron, every time I read one of your posts I can't NOT agree with you. Well this is something I will be experimenting with more... I still have an anger inside me though, it goes away most of the time but comes back at random times. I just had a flash of it writing this post because I think I've confused myself. Do you think it's moral to express anger at/towards someone else as a release? Idk what to do with it......
Today I had a really nice bike ride... riding past an area of downtown Detroit with an outdoor ice skating thing set up. Seeing all the couple holding hands, with the Christmas lights out was so wonderful, and made me wish I had a gf and was skating with them.
That inspired me to just have a good attitude, and express love to everyone, which is probably my happiest state of mind. But then later in the night, it went away. How do you keep the consistency?
Also in my first post I wasn't intending to ask for advice about how to win... just about the decision to participate in the first place, given what I wrote.
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