Originally Posted by Angela
I am so sorry for the pain you've been bearing all these years. I want you to know that WE love you (speaking in the royal plural) and are very, very glad you're with us. In fact, you are an essential and irreplaceable part of who we are and why we're here.
I would like to send you lots and lots of love and gratitude, with the big wish that you are able to feel it, too.
Thanks. I'm kind of surprised by the amount of bitterness I still have and that it just erupted like that... I thought of not saying it, but then thought, well, if it's there, I'll just let it go and maybe that'll help...
Most of the time I feel okay, although I am almost always in some sort of pain (often physical). I know that a lot of this is trauma-related. I've been working for absolutely ages to try to get past all this and forgive and grow and heal and so on. Sometimes I do feel very powerful and very strong and pretty okay about being here, but now and then it still blindsides me. Ugh.
Ah, well. We're going to have a full lunar eclipse tonight (not visible in North America, I don't believe) and a somewhat psychic friend told me that it could be emotionally painful and that it might bring up hidden stuff that needs to be dealt with. I just sort of thought, "Right, okay, whatever, it's the moon..." but maybe she was right.... LOL!
Thank you for your concern and love. It is greatly appreciated.