[Soul Reaver]

I feel my intentions are good. Basically I feel I let some people step on me in the past and that whole part of my life is leaving me feel I no longer respect the person I've been in some situations. The problem is I've been treating these individuals like I let everything slide (which I kinda did because I'm too forgiving) and that they can basically consider myself my friends.

But lately I've been feeling like I really need to let go of the person I was in a lot of areas in my life. And I want to confront the past. It's a matter of honor. The more conscious new me does not want people to get the wrong impression and wants to establish the boundaries.

Problem is, these people are not very much in my life that much these days...and it would feel weird to confront them on purpose. It would make me feel that by confronting them I'm giving them more reason to believe I'm someone they can disrespect...since I'm obviously "traumatized" by it.

I just want to clean the slate of all this accumulated crap. For the first time in my life I'm starting to dislike myself and feel I lost part of my self-respect. That simply doesn't jive with the BIG BIG things I want for myself. I'm specially afraid of the reputation I will have gathered once I reach the top....I don't want to be called the guy with no spine....it's a matter of integration and authenticity.