Avoidance
Avoidance is the biggest problem resulting from my issues of rejection and incessant criticism. I come here to learn and to connect but I must admit that I come here when I am in the process of avoidance.
I will do anything to avoid the significant pain. And while it is emotional pain I actually feel it physically. This process requires that I stay in the pain and find a focus above it that allows me to feel it but to act in positive ways in spite of the pain. Very difficult.
but the concept is that if you can do it every day for 11 weeks that you will actually change the way your brain works. And that is so key for me.
I am going to keep breathing and move forward. In spite of the pain.
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