Originally Posted by Beingist
Makes sense. With me, the surrendering part seems to be happening rather gradually, in spite of myself. But, I know what you mean about not wanting to give up the suffering. Such happens on ever deeper, and ever more subtler levels.
I expect at some point I will go through a major shift, where suffering will take on a whole new ... dimension, but I'll let that happen as (or even if) it happens.
There's a line in the song 'Mad World' that to me encapsulates the bitter sweet process of surrender in which suffering still seems to be of importance while it is undeniable that surrender is the road to peace.
"I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad; The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had".