Originally Posted by Mondrian
It's more a desire to have something deep and real or at least to try for that to see if it is possible. It just feels terribly superficial to imagine going through life with relationships that are basically about self-interest and, ultimately, disinterest, in the other, and not to be able to see if there can be anything more than that.
A relationship always has two sides. Even if you do find someone who could be deeply and truly devoted to you, it is your own devotion that will decide how you feel about the relationship. If you aren't equal to your partner, the relationship will be a dead thing to you no matter how pure the contribution from the other party.