Don't know anything about if anyone have noticed it yet. But your vivid imagination would be hugely used if you used it on writing short stories or books about this theme. Just try to use your own life and write about it, use other names ofcause and places. Maybe this will keep you occupied with the same thoughts but on another level, and the shame of this whole thing will disappear pretty fast. At least try to make a cartoon or short-list or anything artistic with words that are your thoughts.
I guess this is what Lise a Norwegian Goth-girl made when creating Nemi (one of the most successfull strip-cartoon writer and painter in Northen Europe now. Nemi is a Goth-girl that seems to be so different to other girls, but are totally like the other girls arround. I guess this made her stronger and felt better about herself (Lise I mean).
This approach is kinda Taoistisk to the problem, since using what you seem to be good at, in the totally different enviroment can take the actually bad behaviour away. Think of a theif who seem to be really articulate, maybe that person could be used another place (detective or something like that) or the spammer who turns himself in and work for the police instead and becomes legal in his way of being.
And remember it is ok to have strange thoughts, they are just in your head. Do not take too much action ofcause on what you actually think, that is not good. Being too fast on commiting can scare girls off.
Just my two Euro-cents!
Love Leelene  |